It is very hard to accept that the person we loved the most is the one who causes us pain. Life is very playful sometimes, we should never expect a return from anyone else. Nevertheless, we must remember that there's still someone who will love and appreciate us.

Regardless of the past, more importantly is to forgive and look for brighter tomorrow. Everything has a purpose and a good plan so you should not go back to the pain of the past. Live a happy and peaceful.